Just another moment...

@Mei wrote:If ever there was a time for me to shower you with my love, it would be right now. I would shower you with every last drop I could muster and although it may not be much, I would still try with every ounce of my being. If ever there was a time for me to toughen up, it would be now so that you wouldn't have to go through this pain alone. If ever there was a time for me to throw everything aside, it would be right now so that I could give everything that is left to you. If ever there was a time for me to take on some of this pain with you, it would definitely be now because I'm already starting to feel it.

I may just be some silly girl sitting behind a screen that doesn't have any true connection to you, but I would hope that whatever our relationship you would accept my loving words. I may be one of the greatest friends you have ever made with no true face, but as long as you accept ny words, then I will gladly spill them from my heart if it means filling you up all the quicker. I may be a child, a friend, an aquaintance, or even just another member, but I won't leave you.

I may be everything above, I may be none of the above, I may be a burden, or a blessing in disguise, I may be the worst, i may be the best, I may be a lie, I may be the truth, but more than anything.... most of all... I will always be your mother, so if love is what you seek, I will give it all.

(Kinda Lame writing on my part... but for my Kasebaby... whether it's seen or not... Much Love)

@Mei wrote:I had sat for what seemed like an hour with no sense of energy left in my body. My body. I guess I could still say that even if that's not quite the feeling I had. It felt empty sitting in this vessel... like somehow i was detached from it and not actually residing within. Like... I had somehow lived my eighteen years of life not actually attached to the Earth, but instead just being guided by someone else's hand with no desires of my own able to be filled. I didn't feel in control. I didn't feel anything. I couldn't feel..

The water that was once warm had gone cold, yet I was too distracted to have realized it on my skin... again.. I didn't feel anything from this live corpse. I had reached out for someone, anyone to talk to... but I got the same treatment as always, "I tried to tell you" "You're just dramatic" "You need to sleep" or.. simply no reply at all. Now, i had understanding that sometimes people were just busy when I seemed to need them most... and quite thr opposite when you didnt. It wasn't anything that was their fault, but it certainly was something that was just having its way eating at my good luck only to spit back the bad at me. There was nothing that could be done for me. Finally, I felt something... something as i sat here with the cold water still running as before, except.. it wasnt that. It was my chest.. something had encased my heart causing a throbbing sensation im me... Something had made most of my body go limp as I just yearned for someone... anyone... to talk to... to listen... to care. My heart... hurt... it hurt.. it hurt...

It was in this moment that reading through this... you've come to realize... this isn't just another character.... this is me...

@Yama wrote:

@Mei wrote:If ever there was a time for me to shower you with my love, it would be right now. I would shower you with every last drop I could muster and although it may not be much, I would still try with every ounce of my being. If ever there was a time for me to toughen up, it would be now so that you wouldn't have to go through this pain alone. If ever there was a time for me to throw everything aside, it would be right now so that I could give everything that is left to you. If ever there was a time for me to take on some of this pain with you, it would definitely be now because I'm already starting to feel it.

I may just be some silly girl sitting behind a screen that doesn't have any true connection to you, but I would hope that whatever our relationship you would accept my loving words. I may be one of the greatest friends you have ever made with no true face, but as long as you accept ny words, then I will gladly spill them from my heart if it means filling you up all the quicker. I may be a child, a friend, an aquaintance, or even just another member, but I won't leave you.

I may be everything above, I may be none of the above, I may be a burden, or a blessing in disguise, I may be the worst, i may be the best, I may be a lie, I may be the truth, but more than anything.... most of all... I will always be your mother, so if love is what you seek, I will give it all.

(Kinda Lame writing on my part... but for my Kasebaby... whether it's seen or not... Much Love)

Awwwww <3

@Mei wrote:I had sat for what seemed like an hour with no sense of energy left in my body. My body. I guess I could still say that even if that's not quite the feeling I had. It felt empty sitting in this vessel... like somehow i was detached from it and not actually residing within. Like... I had somehow lived my eighteen years of life not actually attached to the Earth, but instead just being guided by someone else's hand with no desires of my own able to be filled. I didn't feel in control. I didn't feel anything. I couldn't feel..

The water that was once warm had gone cold, yet I was too distracted to have realized it on my skin... again.. I didn't feel anything from this live corpse. I had reached out for someone, anyone to talk to... but I got the same treatment as always, "I tried to tell you" "You're just dramatic" "You need to sleep" or.. simply no reply at all. Now, i had understanding that sometimes people were just busy when I seemed to need them most... and quite thr opposite when you didnt. It wasn't anything that was their fault, but it certainly was something that was just having its way eating at my good luck only to spit back the bad at me. There was nothing that could be done for me. Finally, I felt something... something as i sat here with the cold water still running as before, except.. it wasnt that. It was my chest.. something had encased my heart causing a throbbing sensation im me... Something had made most of my body go limp as I just yearned for someone... anyone... to talk to... to listen... to care. My heart... hurt... it hurt.. it hurt...

It was in this moment that reading through this... you've come to realize... this isn't just another character.... this is me...

@Yama wrote:

@Mei wrote:If ever there was a time for me to shower you with my love, it would be right now. I would shower you with every last drop I could muster and although it may not be much, I would still try with every ounce of my being. If ever there was a time for me to toughen up, it would be now so that you wouldn't have to go through this pain alone. If ever there was a time for me to throw everything aside, it would be right now so that I could give everything that is left to you. If ever there was a time for me to take on some of this pain with you, it would definitely be now because I'm already starting to feel it.

I may just be some silly girl sitting behind a screen that doesn't have any true connection to you, but I would hope that whatever our relationship you would accept my loving words. I may be one of the greatest friends you have ever made with no true face, but as long as you accept ny words, then I will gladly spill them from my heart if it means filling you up all the quicker. I may be a child, a friend, an aquaintance, or even just another member, but I won't leave you.

I may be everything above, I may be none of the above, I may be a burden, or a blessing in disguise, I may be the worst, i may be the best, I may be a lie, I may be the truth, but more than anything.... most of all... I will always be your mother, so if love is what you seek, I will give it all.

(Kinda Lame writing on my part... but for my Kasebaby... whether it's seen or not... Much Love)

Awwwww <3

@Mei wrote:If ever there was a time for me to shower you with my love, it would be right now. I would shower you with every last drop I could muster and although it may not be much, I would still try with every ounce of my being. If ever there was a time for me to toughen up, it would be now so that you wouldn't have to go through this pain alone. If ever there was a time for me to throw everything aside, it would be right now so that I could give everything that is left to you. If ever there was a time for me to take on some of this pain with you, it would definitely be now because I'm already starting to feel it.

I may just be some silly girl sitting behind a screen that doesn't have any true connection to you, but I would hope that whatever our relationship you would accept my loving words. I may be one of the greatest friends you have ever made with no true face, but as long as you accept ny words, then I will gladly spill them from my heart if it means filling you up all the quicker. I may be a child, a friend, an aquaintance, or even just another member, but I won't leave you.

I may be everything above, I may be none of the above, I may be a burden, or a blessing in disguise, I may be the worst, i may be the best, I may be a lie, I may be the truth, but more than anything.... most of all... I will always be your mother, so if love is what you seek, I will give it all.

(Kinda Lame writing on my part... but for my Kasebaby... whether it's seen or not... Much Love)

@Mei wrote:Ever get one of those moments where you just hate yourself so much that it pisses you off and you just wanna bash your own face in? No? Just me? Mkay.