When you give them a chance to show you what you're worth in their eyes
When you give them a chance to show you that maybe, just maybe, you are worth a little effort
When you give them a chance to show you that you're something special
And they show you the opposite
They show you you're worthless
They show you you're a waste of energy
They show you you're not special
They show you that on this planet.. you don't belong..
They show you that your life isn't even worth a penny
And you wonder if anything would change without you.... probably not..
Except, there's one person who tried..
Another person who you need to be here for
Another person who doesn't even know they're killing you slowly
Another person who lied to you
Another person who you hoped for yet didn't show up
Another person who has you on their mind but is too busy to stop for five seconds to talk to you..
There are a few you know you'd hurt if you left.... and a future you know you'd miss out on when it comes to that one innocent life... that innocent lif that is too young to understand how to miss you just yet... that innocent life that is too young to remember you just yet... that innocent life that you can't bare to leave... that innocent life that you can't bare to leave to wonder about you... It needs you... and you just want to try so hard for it.... You're conflicted...
But... you'll move on another day in excruciating pain wondering when someone will go above and beyond just for you.... without you having to beg.... Because youre already doing everything you can for people who don't know they need to appreciate you....